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3... oz oven roasted chicken breast

2... cups chopped, fresh romaine lettuce

1... quarter cup each chopped pecans and croutons

mmmmmm

Add two tablespoons reduced fat ranch and let's pray I keep it all off my keyboard while I type this!

The morning after I returned from Haiti I weighed myself. I think I am the only person who can go to a poverty stricken country and come back heavier. When I left I was at 206, when I returned I was over 210! Really? Really!? I guess that's what happens when you have a week of stress, beans, rice, Clif bars, and Haitian spaghetti.

I vowed to begin using Sparkpeople.com to track my calories and fitness on Monday morning. It has definitely helped me keep stay on track. Those who followed me a few years ago know that counting calories is not my thang. I am so thankful for free programs like Sparkpeople that do pretty much ALL the work for you.

I am feeling better than I have in months and the majority of the credit goes to the Holy Spirit for interceding on my behalf, and my husband for all his support and encouragement.

I did have a minor setback though. On Tuesday night at softball I re injured my right ankle. Praise God it wasn't anything like when I wrecked it in November! It is already doing fine and I will probably start my cardio back up tomorrow.

So, what about my weigh goals and my weigh in?

Well, I think I need to re-evaluate my short term goal. I am probably going to need another month to get back under 190. My new short term goal is to get to 195 By June 3rd.

Maybe this is God's way of letting me enjoy the day I get under 200 again. Last time I hit that milestone I was in the middle of post partum depression and really could have cared less. This time there will be at least a celebratory dance!

I weighed in this morning at 202.0! Yay!

Actual results. Feels good.

How is everyone else doing?

A Psalm of Lament

My heart is broken for an entire nation.

Rather than feel guilty for feeling sorrow, I choose to make Psalm 6 my prayer.

"O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.

Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.

My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?

Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.

No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave?

I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.

My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.

Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.

The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.

All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace."

I am still processing my experience in Haiti. I asked God to break my heart. A word to the wise...

...be careful what you pray for.

More to come.