Can you believe it? My goal was to lose my baby weight plus 30 lbs by the end of the year. I still have almost five months left!
I am keeping this blog to help me...
- Keep myself on track
- Keep myself honest
- Provide a healthy home with healthy habits for my girls
- Inspire the people I care about to get or stay healthy
Well...Check, check, check, and DOUBLE CHECK!
I am so, so, so proud of myself. I know I have a million and one people to thank for supporting me on this journey and I love every one of them, but I am proud of ME!
Let's do a couple more flashbacks, shall we?
Feb 18, 2004
I have done well this past year and a half keeping the junk out of my cart at the grocery store and therefore out of my cabinets and fridge but my biggest downfall and biggest addiction has always been fast food, including pizza, and restaurants. I can't control myself. My mind tells me to eat as much as I can. Even when I order I am trying to figure out how to get the most food. There is a struggle in my mind everytime I go through the drive-thru as to whether or not I should supersize, biggiesize, kingsize, etc. my meal. The struggle continues even in sit down establishments. I might want a steak but if the menu tells me that I can have two sides instead of one if I order a chicken dish, I'll order that instead.
I don't know what to do. I don't think cutting something out all together is a good idea when trying to lose weight. For me, it seems like the better thing to do is to retrain yourself on how to deal with the "problems". That being said, I haven't figured out how to do that when it comes to eating out. Hey, I am a work in progress...
So, Octavio and I went to our favorite Mexican place twice this weekend. Both times we shared an entree. Neither one of us felt deprived. I think my gluttony syndrome is cured and that sense of "my food territory" is (almost) gone. YAY!
March 5, 2008
It is like I idolize food. I put it before most other things. It is OK to enjoy food once in a while but it shouldn't consume as much of my time, or should I say I shouldn't consume it so much of the time. I am trying to retrain myself to not think so highly of it.
I have little food rituals I am trying to stop.
We have stopped eating dinner on the couch in front of the tv. We eat at the table now. I have had a few nights where I have asked it I could sit in front of the TV alone on stressful days. It's happened a handful of times and I feel guilty afterwards.
Lunch time is still something I am working on. Before, I would get Ori her lunch, put her to bed, and then get my own lunch ready. Again, I would sit in front of the tv, alone. I still do this but more often than not I eat lunch with Oriana at the table.
I guess I really just have one food ritual I am struggling with - I prefer to eat alone, on the couch, in front of the tv. None of that is healthy for me.
I have learned to LOVE dinner time at the table. My Judge Judy addiction is pretty much cured. I still enjoy eating lunch alone. I think I need to keep it that way.
I am not obsessed with food anymore. I eat to live, not live to eat.
March 7, 2008
I am beginning to realize that you really can retrain your brain and taste buds. I was having a really, really bad craving last night to the point I was salivating just thinking about a certain food. What food? Peppers...I wanted to grill up some red, green, and yellow bell peppers with some onions so bad last night. If we owned a grill I just might have done it!
Thanks again Dad for the grill! We have eaten SO MANY peppers this summer it isn't even funny. Our next house will have enough room in the yard for a garden! Peppers are expensive! Even at Sam's!
March 10, 2008
I don't feel like I am in the right state of mind to 100% commit to a vasectomy one way or the other. But at the same time, I don't want to be put back on birth control, don't want to deal with the changes that will come because of it.
Octavio's appointment is Friday! Bring it on already!
And who could forget my
Goal Jean Announcement on May 1st? I am more than pleased to say that my goal jeans have been too big for the last month and a half!
OK, I could go on and on with my flashbacks but I'll spare you all the pain. I mean you have read all of them already anyway, right?
Now on to some fun stuff...let's review some numbers -
Weight August 2005 - 270.2 lbs
Weight August 2008 - 189.0 lbs!
BMI August 2005 - 46.4
BMI August 2008 - 32.4 (So close to being "Overweight" instead of "Obese"!)
Pant size August 2005 - 22
Pant size August 2008 - 14!
Waist August 2005 - 50.5 inches
Waist August 2008 - 39.5 inches!
Real Age August 2005 - 33.6
Real Age August 2008 - 24.9!
Pace of my first race in January 2007 - 12 minute 10 second mile
Pace of my race in June 2009 - 9 minute 9 second mile!
What's Next?